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Mar. 12th, 2002 02:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vyvyanxI feel terrible. I feel really terrible. I feel physically sick and emotionally mangled and I can't see any way out of it, can't even talk to the person it's all about because he doesn't like talking about such things, says they just make it worse, and maybe they do.
Looking back over his lj entries for last year, he talks about L _so_much_ by name, he's always talking about her, how devoted he is to her and that. He has only _once_ mentioned my name in his lj, and that only in passing (to say I got him a pool cue for Christmas). He has never talked about our relationship in his lj. I think he doesn't want L to know about it.
I feel ill, really ill.
Looking back over his lj entries for last year, he talks about L _so_much_ by name, he's always talking about her, how devoted he is to her and that. He has only _once_ mentioned my name in his lj, and that only in passing (to say I got him a pool cue for Christmas). He has never talked about our relationship in his lj. I think he doesn't want L to know about it.
I feel ill, really ill.
