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Mar. 13th, 2002 03:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vyvyanxOh God, yesterday was fucked up. I wrote all my blasted supervision reports, marked the essays, and sent everything off. I prepared for the Norse class. About 5.30, G came round after work, very tired, and we chatted a bit before he took a nap. I gave my Old Norse class, then woke G up to see if he wanted to go to WUS, but he said he'd sleep a bit more, and possibly join me there later. So I changed my clothes and went out. Realised it was only 8.30 (club opens at 9), so went to KSR, where I saw no one I knew and hung around bleakly upstairs for half an hour, drinking my pint. Then came downstairs. E was now at the bar (surprise, surprise); we chatted a little, but I headed off. He said he'd see me at the club later (he was DJing the last set).
Went to Kambar; no one much to talk to at first. Got my 3 bottles of Heineken for L5, and wandered round clutching them for a while. Talked to Lee from Games and Puzzles. Danced a bit to Elizabeth's set, and asked her to play some Slayer - she said she hadn't brought any, but later on borrowed a CD from AH and put it on - title song from God Hates Us All - yeay! After her set, chatted to her and RRW, and then suddenly G turned up.
We had a pleasant time at the club the rest of the time, drinking wine etc. AH apparently complimented G on his choice of women, saying he thought I was a genius, but that G should "enjoy it while it lasts". Very strange; I wonder what he meant by it exactly.
Came back; wasn't actually too unhappy, but G thought I was and urged me to say. I said there was no point in talking about it, since he didn't like talking about such things, but he said he would on this occasion. So I told him (most of) the things that have been particularly bothering me the last couple of days. It was all very difficult and nerve-wracking, but I'm glad I got these things off my chest. However, it very nearly caused us to break up again. At one point he got up and said he was going back to his house, and would send me a cheque (for the money I lent him in January), and walked out. I sat on the bed sobbing, unable to believe we had broken up again, and wondering whether to do something unpleasant to myself. About 5 minutes later, I heard someone come into the corridor outside, and scratch at the door. I opened it; it was G; I let him in; he was apologetic and distraught and very tired. Shortly afterwards we went to bed.
About 2 hours later, I had the almost impossible task of getting G up to go to work on time. I had scarcely eaten for two days, and had about ten hours sleep in the previous three nights. I was also probably still rather hung over. G doubtless felt just as bad or worse. Somehow, I got him to go to work, just about on time. Then I slept for a little. I got up a couple of hours ago, and ate something (though I wasn't actually hungry, just felt it was probably a good idea, since reality was getting rather detached. Read usenet, posted stuff. Will meet G after work. Will probably meet C for meal at Charlie Chan's this evening (though I'm still waiting for a confirmation from her).
I wonder which of: tiredness; hunger; dehydration; emotional difficulty; excessive head-banging to Slayer - has caused my head to feel so strange and woolly right now?
Went to Kambar; no one much to talk to at first. Got my 3 bottles of Heineken for L5, and wandered round clutching them for a while. Talked to Lee from Games and Puzzles. Danced a bit to Elizabeth's set, and asked her to play some Slayer - she said she hadn't brought any, but later on borrowed a CD from AH and put it on - title song from God Hates Us All - yeay! After her set, chatted to her and RRW, and then suddenly G turned up.
We had a pleasant time at the club the rest of the time, drinking wine etc. AH apparently complimented G on his choice of women, saying he thought I was a genius, but that G should "enjoy it while it lasts". Very strange; I wonder what he meant by it exactly.
Came back; wasn't actually too unhappy, but G thought I was and urged me to say. I said there was no point in talking about it, since he didn't like talking about such things, but he said he would on this occasion. So I told him (most of) the things that have been particularly bothering me the last couple of days. It was all very difficult and nerve-wracking, but I'm glad I got these things off my chest. However, it very nearly caused us to break up again. At one point he got up and said he was going back to his house, and would send me a cheque (for the money I lent him in January), and walked out. I sat on the bed sobbing, unable to believe we had broken up again, and wondering whether to do something unpleasant to myself. About 5 minutes later, I heard someone come into the corridor outside, and scratch at the door. I opened it; it was G; I let him in; he was apologetic and distraught and very tired. Shortly afterwards we went to bed.
About 2 hours later, I had the almost impossible task of getting G up to go to work on time. I had scarcely eaten for two days, and had about ten hours sleep in the previous three nights. I was also probably still rather hung over. G doubtless felt just as bad or worse. Somehow, I got him to go to work, just about on time. Then I slept for a little. I got up a couple of hours ago, and ate something (though I wasn't actually hungry, just felt it was probably a good idea, since reality was getting rather detached. Read usenet, posted stuff. Will meet G after work. Will probably meet C for meal at Charlie Chan's this evening (though I'm still waiting for a confirmation from her).
I wonder which of: tiredness; hunger; dehydration; emotional difficulty; excessive head-banging to Slayer - has caused my head to feel so strange and woolly right now?
